Tick Tock Tick Tock....

So, after going back and forth and around in 5 million circles, we (crossing my fingers) have a date to meet with the lawyers to find out if the move to TX is a go or not. It's been a frustrating journey to even get to this point, and I'm hoping that after this meeting we will be relieved to some extent. Almost a year ago (September) I added Juliana to my insurance and every month after that I've received no payments from Josh and have been battling to arrange some kind of meeting to get things settled.
Once the letter for the move was sent off, I had to send it twice because he was too lazy to go to the post office and pick up the notice that he had gotten on his door twice reminding him that he had something there. Then he contested the move and we waited around 2 months or more to hear back from his lawyer with a date that we could meet to discuss a new visitation. After a lot of phone calls and emails to her, she finally responded and we had a date for the 18Th (? I think) of August to meet. Then my lawyer gets sick and is in bed for 2 weeks. See he's a paraplegic so he gets sick a lot. Then to my surprise I find out we were supposed to respond back to their contest to the move and we had 2 weeks....totally missed that deadline, because of my lawyer was sick. We thought we might have to start over, go to a judge or something horrible. Well apparently not very many lawyers know about that deadline because it's hidden in some paragraph in the statute. So I had a date to meet with them on the 27Th of this month and a few days later I hear from Josh's lawyer that she forgot about a court date she had set up and we'll have to reschedule....uuummm can I not stress the word "frustration" enough by this point? Well I ended up sending a email to my lawyer basically complaining because I've waited almost a YEAR, and I've been ignored (by Josh's lawyer mostly) and put on the back burner, not gotten paid, this and that. He came back with a response....how does the 26Th sound? So we're meeting the 26Th of this month and I'm hoping nothing will happen in the next few days to make this not happen.
Pray pray pray that it goes well and we find good news. I think there has been a lot of stress, frustration, and pretty much any other word you can think of during all of this and to know that we can move where we can be happier. I think it's put a lot on our marriage, not really know what the future holds because of this issue, and it's more upsetting to me than anything, because I know that the mistakes you make you have to pay for, and I feel like I've been paying for this mistake of not being responsible for a while and to know it effects others now makes it worse. I know God forgave me for that mistake, but how long does "this" go on?

What's next?

Ohhhh how waiting sucks. So we didn't have the court date last week like we were supposed to because my lawyer was sick. See he's a parapalegic (sp?) and so he gets sick a lot and just so happened he got sick right then. We are planning on going on the 18th of this month, so again pray that this is God's plan and everything will work out well. I've gone back and forth on how I feel about the whole thing. It's just so stressful. I want my baby girl to be near me all the time, because I know she will miss us and when she's with him and if she wanted to go home, he wouldn't do anything about it. She was gone pretty much for a week between seeing him for her regular visits and going with my parents to see Beckie in OK, and my mom said that on the way home and she was saying was "Can mommy meet us somewhere, I want mommy...." :( It makes me sad, because I don't ever want her to feel like mommy doesn't want her all the time, and I know if she does end going there for the summer than I will be calling a lot, but that's not the same.

On to another stressful situation, but not as sterssful....Taurus has filled out application after application and hopefully will have an interview with for a part time job. It may not be the best job he can get, but it's something and something is better than nothing, so we're hoping that it will come through and he can start right away. We thought we might have to put the kids back in daycare. If he gets this job he won't have to. We have a friend who is a stay at home momma with her 1 year old little girl and said that she would watch the kids for an hour or two until Taurus got off to pick them up. He would work from 5am-9am Mon-Fri and since I don't have to be at work until 8:00 then it would only be a little over an hour. So it works out good....now he just has to get the job.

And now ladies and gentlemen....EXCITING news. Well it's probably more exciting to me than anything else, BUT Juliana will be going to gymnastics. I'm so excited for her and ready to go with her to get her first leotard and everything else. I remember when I was in gymnastics when I was a little girl and I loved it! I hope she enjoys it too, but if she doesn't I won't force her to like it....but I secretly hope she loves it. She'll do it for 4 months, one night a week, and if she really likes it from there, than we might just continue doing it. It's not expensive at all and she needs something "fun" to do. I'll be a prould little momma watching her.